Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in fallenbutterfli's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
12:34 am	On shoulders of iron I carry the world But iron bends And it will break I cant hold it all Not now I am not built For such as this I cannot hold you When I cannot even hold Myself I am not your savior When I cannot bring myself Out of your Hell. (Break My Heart)
Friday, July 22nd, 2005
2:15 am	I know it's been awhile.. What faith have I When it comes to you? You give me nothing Share nothing of you But broken dreams And candy-coated lies. Your eyes say nothing. What eyes can When they belong To an empty heart? You held me and I lived For the first time With you. You say I am nothing When the only time I exist Is when you hold me. How can you say I don't belong When the only time I breathe Is with you. I am bound In chains that do not break. Welded with tears These impenetrable links Were forged in the fires Of my hell. Made from solid Anguish They hold fast And restrict my heart Until it bleeds With the pain you created. In this fiery prison Of broken promises Only you hold the key To my release. I am enslaved by pain To serve a dark master That only you can defeat. Will you be my champion Or am I destined To live forever A slave To a blackened heart? Mine who lives in darkness Hermited away inside a prison Of your own creation Dont you know the Empress smiles on us? She wishes us life And she grants us love If only you would open your eyes That see so little of the truth You are good You are safe You deserve Mine who lives in darkness You belong to the light. At 3am I dance across the dream The thought of being real To you or anyone The thought of believing in something The thought of believing in me You compell my mind And develop the dream You bring me to life When I have no breath left I lie at your feet Your pawn, your humble chink in the chain Your dream among dreams Your one nightmare In your belief there is nothing Here or there, it is all gone Living behind blind eyes The only eyes that see me As I should be Do you really believe? We floated into the darkness Away from the lights of life. I felt an emptiness inside That consumed my very soul. I felt nothing within myself But an expanse of black depth That confused me Much more than it confuses you. I watched my life drift away And I felt nothing But emptiness. No More Butterflies... I walked through the park In the darkness of tonight. I stopped and listened To the willow weeping In all its rustling glory. I laid myself down Upon the cold cemented walk And stared upwards At the unrelenting stars. The Dipper seemed as if to move In the ink black sky, And my world stood still Inside the beating Of my cold cemented heart. This is just a carnival of meaningless words Shuffled together with bright lights and flaming torches Nothing is as it seems. We are all wrapped up within a grand masquerade Of pointless plots and games of the mind Nothing is real. Current Mood: calm (Break My Heart)
Sunday, January 16th, 2005
12:21 pm	New Poetry Love is an illusion A spell on your mind Something you think is true And utterly divine. It creates a cloud That lives in your eyes It hides the truth You utterly despise. Love is to be feared Not something to embrace For it will leave your heart in ashes As tears stream down your face. It shreds your soul And fogs your mind, Crushes your heart And leaves nothing behind. ~ Broken in this awkward mess This loveless and faithlessness There is nothing that will heal their pain I feel that it is all in vain I lend a shoulder and a steady hand "We need more" they always demand I do my best to set things right And help them through this blackened night But all I do is never enough The road is rocky, its just too rough. They beg and plead and cry inside And still they go under with the tide Their broken souls I cannot heal They beg for answers only time can reveal When night has come and darkness is here I am alone in a corner sheding a silent tear Their pain is just too much for me And through my tears I can finally see There is nothing I can do for them There's nothing I can be but what I am. ~ I'm cracking up I'm falling apart Drowning in pain That you call art I'm dying inside My strength is gone Sacrafice me at will I am merely your pawn. ~ Sitting here I cannot help but wonder If what I feel If what I am Is truely real I feel submerged And pressured down I am imploding Without a sound. ~ I dont understand This reality I claim I was supposed to mean more I was supposed to be more Yet here I am In this awkward mess Completely suffocated Pressured Broken Utterly alone In this mirrage That has become My life. Current Mood: awake (Break My Heart)
Sunday, November 21st, 2004
4:15 am	Empty Anticipation In a world of dark seclusion She sits in anticipation, Holding her breath To hear his heart beat. Waiting for the truth That she knows dwells Deep within his soul. Tears flood her eyes As she pleads for the words She knows she'll never hear. His perfect silence Has broken her sanity, And all she has to cling to Is an old promise Of a shattered dream. Current Mood: lonely (Break My Heart)
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
10:34 pm	Murderer Hiding away in your little hole Cowering from the dark and cold Drinking blood of broken hearts Breaking bodies into little parts Crunching bones within your fist Praying that you dont exist, And when the damage is done You realize you have won With hatred glowing in your mind You are the murderer that lives inside. Current Mood: gloomy (Break My Heart)
Thursday, September 30th, 2004
1:38 am	The salty taste of tears on my lips Lingers with the memory Of your bitter words that caused them And the pain you create With your half-hearted attempts To be polite While you crush my spirit With your silent rejection I like this one. I was on the verge of a mood swing when I wrote it, which is almost always the best time. Current Mood: awake (Break My Heart)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
8:31 pm	The Chained Angel You left me chained here The angel of your solitude And as you wandered away The links held me fast To this iron clad hell That I call reality I am lost in this cell Because I am bound By your love And by your hate Current Mood: artistic (Break My Heart)
7:52 pm	hi (Break My Heart)